Dancing Around the Altar
Baby Girl,
You are frustrated.
I’m okay with that.
You have been sick for a month and 17 days. Every time you think you’re getting better, you wake up in the morning with new symptoms, new conditions. You have been to the doctor twice, and are considering going again.
What did you say to your ministry partner a little bit ago?
Which part? I’m laughing because, as You know, I have said a lot.
The part where you danced around calling Me unfair by essentially saying that I was unfair… while saying that you would never say that.
“And we are His kids. We have His divine nature.
If it is true that somehow it is a lack of faith or a lack of something on our part, it feels like He has hidden something really wonderful and knows that most of His kids are just too ignorant to find it and I would not accuse God of being unfair so OBVIOUSLY I am missing something or it's not true that we can just choose to never be sick again.”
What did you say just before that?
“I have been listening to and meditating on healing scripture for over a month. I have asked the LORD to talk to me about it if I'm missing something, and we're having lots of conversations as you know, but I... I don't know.”
So, questioning My character was what you followed up “I don’t know” with?
You are dedicating your life to shining a light on who I am, who you are in Me, and what I have made available to you, and your response to not knowing about something you are wrestling with is to question My character?
Tears. The hallmark sign that I am getting through to you.
I am calling you to radical obedience. I am speaking to you as clearly, and as plainly as I can, without allowing you to see My lips moving and yet you override the “I know I should” and “I know I shouldn’t” in your spirit all throughout the day. Care for your flesh as well as you know how, not as well as you feel like on any given day, and then disregard your flesh.
Disregard = pay no attention to; ignore.
What is that book your husband loves to talk about so much?
The Score Takes Care of Itself.
So, are You telling me that if I get radical obedience right, if I learn to be obedient in every area of my life, divine health will take care of itself?
You have been rehearsing healing Scripture in the same way the prophets of Baal were dancing around the fire getting louder and louder… you know what? Read the story to Me.
(1 Kings 18:26-29)
“26…they took the bull that was given them, and they prepared it and called upon the name of Baal from morning until noon, saying, “O Baal, answer us!” But there was no voice, and no one answered. And they limped around the altar that they had made. 27 And at noon Elijah mocked them, saying, “Cry aloud, for he is a god. Either he is musing, or he is relieving himself, or he is on a journey, or perhaps he is asleep and must be awakened.”
Come on, Little One. Lighten up. You can laugh! Elijah suggested their fake god might be pooping. That was witty; and your husband had you use the search bar on the ministry website for the word poop. Now if someone tries it, this letter will populate.
28 And they cried aloud and cut themselves after their custom with swords and lances, until the blood gushed out upon them. 29 And as midday passed, they raved on until the time of the offering of the oblation, but there was no voice. No one answered; no one paid attention.”
If I were to heal you based on how many times you quoted healing Scriptures or how many times you claimed to be healed or called Me your healer, you would come up with a formula to teach to everyone else.
If you were to get everything right about how to care for your body and, as a result, I give you divine health, you would stand up on a soapbox and tell everyone how you did it.
When Elijah called down fire from heaven that burned up not only the sacrifice but the stones and the moat of water around the altar, PROVING that I am the One True God, he did that because that is what I told him to do.
Divine health follows radical obedience.
Radical obedience IS NOT the formula to achieve divine health.
I am not quite sure that I understand what You’re saying.
If my children dance around an altar, which is a metaphor if you are not following… if My children are practicing radical obedience with a heart motivation of getting Me to heal them, divine healing IS NOT going to be the natural consequence.
LOVE Me because I first LOVED you.
Out of that LOVE, serve Me with your whole heart.
Meditate on My Word because you delight in it - not to get it to work for you.
Talk to Me because you LOVE My fellowship - not to convince Me to give you something I want to give you in the first place.
When you come to Me, essentially begging Me to heal you, that is like a five-year-old who tells their parents every single day what they want for Christmas, not knowing that it’s already in the bedroom closet, wrapped, and ready for Christmas.
Just because they have not yet received it does not mean that it has not been purchased, wrapped, and is waiting until the time is right.
The problem is, the first time that child’s eyes got as big as saucers and they saw that toy and expressed their heart’s desire, their parents had already decided to give it. That child will likely believe that it was the result of all the reminders that they got what they got - not simply that the gift was a reflection of the parent’s LOVE.
The gifts that I give are:
Timely
Age-appropriate
Given when you have the maturity to receive it
You wouldn’t give a BMX bike to a toddler. That gift would be wasted on them. You give a toddler a tricycle, a preschooler a bike with training wheels, and so on.
You are wanting a racing motorcycle, but you refuse to put on a helmet when you ride your bike.
Stop dancing around the altar.
Practice radical obedience and let the score take care of itself.
LOVE you,
Daddy
1 Kings 18:26