What happened tonight?

I was riding bikes with my husband and had an accident breaking my left pinkie and my right foot, severely bruising my tailbone and spraining my right hand. I’m admitted to the hospital awaiting surgery on my foot.

I’ve been saying all night it could have been…

Yesterday when you met with your ministry partner, she had some sharp words of rebuke for you. What was that about?

I told her about the thoughts and feelings I had towards one of the pastors, and then how well that book delivery ended up going. When she started her rebuke, I thought, “I’m telling you this because I already know that my thinking is off,” but immediately…

You are frustrated.

I’m okay with that.

You have been sick for a month and 17 days. Every time you think you’re getting better, you wake up in the morning with new symptoms, new conditions. You have been to the doctor twice, and are considering going again.

What did you say to your ministry partner a little bit ago?

Welcome home! You’ve been gone for 20 days now and it feels good to be home. Before you rush off to work, let’s talk.

You have an opportunity to shift your mindset and experience that uninhibited joy you asked Me about a few years ago. Are you interested?

Remember when uninhibited joy was your focus word for the year?

Do you know what has been preventing you from experiencing that joy? Toxic positivity.

It’s 2:03 AM and you have been restlessly awaiting our meeting since you laid down at 10 PM. You want answers. You want the next steps. Baby, you’ve already got them.

I want you to know that I will be quiet for a season, and you are to be quiet as well.

Why the tears? I won’t be far from you. I am within you.

If, in this season, when you are not hearing My voice, you feel…

Watching you on the court the past several weeks has been like watching a 3rd grader play tennis with a seasoned professional. You have been all over the place. When the game starts, you appear to be ready. You’re standing with your feet planted, slightly on the balls of your feet, knees bent, eyes on the ball and ready but, as soon as that first ball is returned, it’s like everything you know is out the window.

When your opponent serves the ball, you run to meet it and…

You’re out of line on that weed whip. This is a good time for you to sit in the shade of this garage so we can talk.

You have “repented” too many times for your attitude about this traveling sports team you signed up for your daughter to participate in this summer. You apologize over and over for your bad attitude and then you rehash all of the reasons why you have a bad attitude with your friends who ask what you’re looking forward to this summer.

Poison.